First Post.

Name:  You may call me Alice.
Age:  21
Occupation:  A student and a writer
Height:  5ft 7in
CW:  149
HW:  175
LW:  120
GW:  103  Audry Hepburn was my height and 103lbs.

I developed Ana in high-school, although I was always weird with food, I either binged or abstained, there never really was anything regular.  I found that the best way to not binge was to not eat.  So in high-school I stopped.  It was after a bad break up that I gave up, started eating again, binging again, and before I knew it I was 175lbs.  I became ashamed and began to try to develop a kind of normalcy to my eating, and lost nothing.  After four years, I have returned to Ana.  I am fed up with myself for so many reasons, I need that feeling of touching the ethereal, aspiring to the goddesses.  I've lost 25 pounds thus far and need the motivation to keep going, to perfect myself.  It is hard, some days I will eat five calories more than what I planned and it will hurl me forward into another binge like before.  Emptiness feels so much better.

Here I will post my day to day life, struggles, the food I eat, recipes, thinspo, tips, and thoughts.  I don't know why, but perhaps it's just to know the simple fact that someone else is there behind the looking glass with me.

~Alice~