Interesting Article Excerpt

I was searching for a place to find the nutrition in 1 M&M and stumbled upon an article comparing "Ones".  So many articles only compare servings, I always have to calculate down portion sizes and I much prefer knowing exactly how many calories are in each individual item or bite.

Taken from http://www.fitnessmagazine.com/weight-loss/expert-advice/diet-detective/calorie-counts-for-popular-food-items/
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One Pringles Potato Chip vs. One McDonald's French Fry


Believe it or not, one french fry has only five calories, while a single Pringles chip is double at 10 calories.



One Grape Tomato vs. One Green Seedless Grape

The winner: The grape tomato has only one calorie, whereas a green grape has four. However, both are great choices, particularly for their antioxidant content (e.g., grapes have flavonoids and tomatoes have lycopene).



One Strand of Whole Wheat Spaghetti vs. One Tablespoon of Campbell's Select Herbed Chicken with Roasted Vegetables Soup

The strand of spaghetti has only 3.5 calories, whereas the sip of soup has 6.25 calories. Keep in mind, however, research indicates that eating a low-calorie soup is a great way to fill up before a meal.



One Stick of Wrigley's Juicy Fruit Gum vs. One Piece of Bazooka

I have mixed feelings about gum: Some people say it helps them control their weight, but I don't love the way it looks. That said, who would think that chewing two or three pieces of gum a day adds up to 4.5 pounds per year? The winner here is Juicy Fruit at 10 calories, compared with Bazooka's 15.



One M&M vs. One Jelly Belly vs. One Peppermint Altoid

M&M's can be a pretty good deal at times, especially if you're comparing them to a regular candy bar (one bite of a Hershey's bar with almonds has 37 calories) which always seems to disappear so fast. Also, if you're sharing M&M's, they split up nicely because you can pass the bag back and forth. However, they have 4.3 calories per piece, which add up fast as you're popping them into your mouth. As far as jelly beans go, well, I hear a lot about them being low in fat, but that doesn't mean very much -- they're still four calories per bean. If you're satisfied with a few, that's great, but watch out for unconscious candy dish consumption. Altoids and other mints are another story. They supposedly serve a function -- to freshen your breath -- so the calories don't matter, right? Sorry, but all calories count, and please spare me the argument that it takes work to suck on the mint. One Altoid has almost 3.5 calories.



One Bite-Size Cube of Cheddar Cheese vs. One Famous Amos Chocolate Chip Cookie

Clearly the cheese is the better choice nutritionally, but you need to know that cheese is not a health food you can consume without guilt -- one bite-size (1/2-inch) cube has 55 calories, whereas the cookie has only 37.5 calories. Whenever possible, go with low-fat cheese. A great one is Cabot's Vermont 50% Light Cheddar -- 35 calories per bite-size (1/2-inch) cube.



One Fritos Original Corn Chip vs. One Cashew nut

Here again, the cashew has health benefits that far outweigh those of the nutritionally bland corn chip; however, cashews have 8.5 calories per nut, whereas Fritos contain five per chip. So just because you hear that nuts are healthful doesn't give you carte blanche to overindulge -- you're supposed to eat nuts in place of something else in your diet that's high in calories and nutritionally inferior, not simply add them.



One Broccoli Floret vs. One Baby Carrot

Both are super vegetables. Basically, you can't eat enough of either one. Carrots have the antioxidant beta carotene, which may reduce the risk of heart disease and cancer and promote better vision, especially night vision, while broccoli is just loaded with health benefits (high in vitamins A, C, and K and a great source of iron and folate). Okay, so which is lower in calories? It's the broccoli at 0.8 calories; the baby carrot has 1.25.

Failure.

I ate a cookie.  It was one cookie, and I ate it.  Not a taste, or nibble, or even a bite...it was a whole cookie.  I failed.  When I got into the car I started crying.  I went home and just about devoured everything in sight, I figured if I was going to go and do shit like that I didn't deserve to be thin.  I'm so mad at myself.  Today I drove to Target before work and grabbed some laxatives.  I just hope they empty me, quickly.  Today, I am fasting.  I do not deserve to eat anything after last night.  Tomorrow neither.  Saturday I can have 200 calories, but no more.  Sunday I can have 300.  Monday I can't eat anything, but if I would like some broth during the day I may have it.

Pistachio Shells and Flaking Pages.

I ate three pistachios for breakfast (15).  For some reason I always liked discarding the empty shells, they remind me of what I aspire to...so light, so empty, thin and smooth.  Almond shells are so awkward and rough; there is just too much there, too many layers, too thick.  Pistachio shells are perfect.

I'll add more to this post later today.  For now I must return to work.
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I'm so glad that I was able to plan this date to Panera with my friend; I had fun with her, but it was also a successful escape.  Today at work there was a panini potluck...sandwiches of large thick slabs of carbs smothered in butter so that the sides brown nicely, stacks of cheese and chunks of animal sliding out the sides in a gooey, greasey mess (350, and that is if I just put a single slice of cheese on two of the smalles pieces of bread, no butter, no meat)--potato slices cooked in nothing but fat (160)--then dessert: cupcakes topped with a sugary paste topped with more sugar (325), and pieces of candy (10-65), and apple-flavoured sugar water (120).

I ate at panera and consumed 110 calories, for a total today of 125.

Everyone at my work does nothing but eat.  There are candy containers all over...a huge plastic tub of redvines sit at my desk...that other people will eat and I will chew and spit out when serious cravings hit.

I work in a library.  I love the job, absolutely.  I am surrounded by books and stories all through the day.  And they keep me in the back; I mend books mostly: take up their tattered, forlorn looking bodies and re-glue what was once glued, and tape together what was once whole, and re-bind what was once gleaming and new.  If it cannot be fixed, it must be thrown away...but I keep most of them.  Dubliners by James Joyce and Sir Nigel, by Sir Arthur Connan Doyle are my latest aquisitions.  They litter the ground with frail flakes of the pages when you pick them up.
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Tonight I shall be out and about again.  I'm not sure when I will eat, or what, but I probably should have something so my stomach doesn't make a sound when I go over to my boyfriend's.  I might make a small pot of veggitable soup (50).  That should be enough for the day.

Today

I made up my mind to fast today, and was only slightly successful.  My cravings howled at me all morning at work, so I grabbed some redvines and ate them in the bathroom--only chewing them and then spitting them out. Then, just a bit ago, I visited my boyfriend and made him dinner.  I love cooking and blending flavours so it was impossible to go through the ordeal without tasting.  It was a Cajun rice dish, I had two pea-sized tastes. Other than that, I drank a low-carb redbull and ate my vitamins.  It was in total less than 50 calories consumed.

Tomorrow I am meeting a friend at Panera.  I can eat the strawberry poppyseed salad without chicken and nuts: 110 calories.  With a light breakfast and dinner I'll be able to stay around 250 calories, max is 300.

First Post.

Name:  You may call me Alice.
Age:  21
Occupation:  A student and a writer
Height:  5ft 7in
CW:  149
HW:  175
LW:  120
GW:  103  Audry Hepburn was my height and 103lbs.

I developed Ana in high-school, although I was always weird with food, I either binged or abstained, there never really was anything regular.  I found that the best way to not binge was to not eat.  So in high-school I stopped.  It was after a bad break up that I gave up, started eating again, binging again, and before I knew it I was 175lbs.  I became ashamed and began to try to develop a kind of normalcy to my eating, and lost nothing.  After four years, I have returned to Ana.  I am fed up with myself for so many reasons, I need that feeling of touching the ethereal, aspiring to the goddesses.  I've lost 25 pounds thus far and need the motivation to keep going, to perfect myself.  It is hard, some days I will eat five calories more than what I planned and it will hurl me forward into another binge like before.  Emptiness feels so much better.

Here I will post my day to day life, struggles, the food I eat, recipes, thinspo, tips, and thoughts.  I don't know why, but perhaps it's just to know the simple fact that someone else is there behind the looking glass with me.

~Alice~